i like the way you move

starting fucking fresh

2007-10-26T05:08:53Z

olvideseamor

new journal, add it.

cajadeorador @ 2007-10-25T17:23:00

2007-10-25T22:25:34Z

i am deleting this journal,

no one reads it either way and its mostly just bullshit about me being
upset and jake

its a real waste of space and time hahaha

164 days

2007-10-23T00:29:21Z

i miss you

this

2007-10-19T19:15:57Z

clock as never seemed so alive

being

2007-10-18T01:28:10Z

alone can be quite romantic

i just wanted you to know,

2007-10-11T22:18:32Z

yesterday was such a horrible day for me,

but andy is coming home tonight and im making chicken rice!
im so happppppppppy

unraveling,

2007-10-09T02:41:40Z

i didnt think id ever get these butterflies back, but tonight i found myself
doing my hair and changing my pj's because i thought you were coming over
i used to feel this way three years ago with you- and i did again today

but as the phone just kept ringing and i continuously got your voicemail, something clicked back into my brain

b/c of the aderol ill be up all night making rules for kim's car and sewing again

p.s. kim- i just got your voicemail and i looooooove you

good ole' boyz

2007-09-30T15:47:17Z

inbetween the brewers game, and two football games this week i have no voice left

i got away with drinking beer in front of a cop
i got away with something extremly funny and risky last night,
haha jake, i have eyes of a hawk for cops

edot:
im drink as fuck and i walked all the qway here

and no one even saw ,e! fuick yeah for that bullshuit!

i

2007-09-28T03:29:19Z

sleep and draw way too much lately

i

2007-09-24T14:35:13Z

love you so much,

i

2007-09-16T02:46:22Z

went walking in the middle of park ave. with my eyes closed

it just felt nice not to care for once

cajadeorador @ 2007-09-11T05:52:00

2007-09-11T11:52:11Z

mommy.

gone for too long,

2007-08-30T12:02:59Z

were taking my brother to green bay today, and i wont see him until christmas
i cant imagine life without andy in it,
and me always looking forward to a smiling face when i go to the basement
when im having a bad day, or i have a funny story to share
and someone who sticks up for me when im fighting with my mom or dad

no more lake trips
no more pedros trips
no more sneaking to the island for cigars and cigarettes
no more freezy pop nights
no more sound of music
no more band practices

this is really going to take some adjusting.

mascara always runs

2007-08-25T05:25:14Z

lately ive been worrying about my weight again,
most of my meals consist of rice cakes and citrus green tea

the only thing thats been making me as calm as i am is that my room is finally not a
mess anymore, milwaukees best, and this knit sweater roni let me borrow

i am not comfortable in my skin

to be honest,

2007-08-19T03:46:18Z

im getting pretty fucking sick of this.

im

2007-08-13T03:57:01Z

going to alterra with mike tomorrow,
and just about all over wisconsin. i have about a trillion pictures i need to post and im sure ill have more after my adventure.
i just dyed my hair, im spending most of the week with carrie
and jessi bby

this is the happiest ive been in weeks

let me tell you

2007-08-08T15:48:18Z

what my life has been for days upon days,
if im not at carries, i go and get wasted. we went to kylee's the other day and i drank beer with smoked with kylee's mom. this is my life, and i understand it pretty pathedic. i come home, and i sleep ,paint, or run. nothing too exciting. i need money, so i can get a car, and drive to grant park everyday. i think its the most beautiful place in the world.
i make mistakes like every other human and i also learn from them, i am not an idiot. i have a good, smart head on my shoulders and most of the time i think i just care too much.

i got best friends, and i got a dream that might get me somewhere

to be honest, i dont know what im even trying to say
my mind has been all over the place for the past three days

red lipstick & a bright pair of shoes

2007-08-05T15:50:23Z

almost done,

pooooooop

12 hours

2007-08-04T14:43:11Z

everybody's gotta learn sometime, i need your lovin' like the sunshine

lindsay and i stayed up most of the night talking about just about everything there is in the world. i went through half a pack throughout the whole night, and i have no idea why. we watched the sunrise, and fell asleep shortly after. something just feels different about me now, its simple yet strange.

today carrie and i are going to zoo, im doing slave work all week so i can get money for her nephews to ride the train, theyre great little boys. jake comes home tonight and im not even sure if ill see him.

but everybody's gotta learn sometime

wash away

2007-07-26T23:10:12Z

i was debating staying up north for another 4 days
i dont want to be home
i dont want to be away
i dont want to be in my bed
i dont want to be in my skin

i dont want to be anything

michelle is screaming hahahaha

2007-07-15T12:31:44Z

i started my favorite painting of all, and ill have more pictures of it later,
im leaving for camping in like two hours

i wish i was a turtle

reset

2007-07-12T02:04:34Z

there is so much paint on my fingers,
my room is finally clean and so is the bathroom. im excited for the end of the week, tomorrow im hanging out with jordan then packing for camping with carries family and whatnot. well be gone from the 15-21st, then the 22nd i leave for up north for another week.

i really need to get away from this,

july 4th

carrie and abby!

carries dad gave me a nice fourth

the next day i went up north with my mom, sister, and brittany, her sisters and mom!

brittany and lindsay

dont know,

lindsay and i

before she leaked

roastin'

she threw my kleenex in the water, so i squished pretzels on her belly

doin' her business

while we were out at this island, we deciede to go skinny dipping. so we proceeded to throw all our clothing on land. were laughing and having fun til we hear this noise on the other side. someone was growling at us, and before we know it- some man and lady are paddling by in their canoe and the lady yells out "busted!"

hahahahahaha, i thought it was an actual animal

then we went on a booze cruz

sandy b00bz

sisterz 4 lyfe

talking to my mom

sexi

paddle boat

theennnn a couple days ago jake jordan andy and i went to grant park to swim

cooooold

spinnin'

fallen in

running for my life

still runnin'

safe!

jordans table

chasin' seagulls

what-eva

2007-07-03T15:42:13Z

you know, im thinking someday that all this being upset wont matter to me,

so im going to do what i want

who knew?

2007-06-30T16:00:33Z

im so excited!

theres

2007-06-25T21:49:35Z

this girl in my house that talks like an 8 year old lindsay lohan- id like to slit her neck personally

something just feels so empty to me, and i dont even know what it is & i feel stupid because the times i try to explain it, i cant even find the right words.

everythings just slippin', and all im doin is sippin'